Lady Gaga just finished her concert in The Big Dome.

And I was not there.

I feel kinda sad since I really like - no, adore - her so much. Sayang much?



This makes me want to work so so so hard, so in the future, I would be able to do - in this case, watch - whatever and whoever I want.

That's all.

I just hate it when something goes wrong unexpectedly despite the fact that you have worked or tried so hard to prevent a particular unfortunate situation.

I DETEST THIS FEELING. Now, it's been stopping me from functioning. I have lots and lots of things in mind.

Kainis.

1. I have a strong feeling that I will grow old alone. I am afraid to love, trust, and give myself to another man. Maybe philo lessons were right; my fundamental option is FEAR.

2. I hate some of my friends. And they will never know it. Yes, I love them (HONESTLY), but they irritate me constantly.

3. Despite the fact that I have the "shala" (sosyal) Ateneo college, I wonder why companies are not fighting for my services when I graduate. Sometimes I wonder if shifting out of ComTech was the right choice. Then again, a lot of Com people succeed in life. Jirits (kainis).

4. I have a love-hate relationship with my mother (the famous Tita Chona). I am saddened by the fact that the word "hate" was included. It was her fault, by the way.

5. I badly want to french kiss a cute guy afterwhich I touch his dick. Oo, wag ka nang magulat, dear reader. Alam kong nagjajakol or nagfifinger ka rin naman in your free time!

6. I really want to be famous and filthy rich. Some of my friends think that I'm cheap or KSP because of the things I do to attract attention. I don't care. Patay-malisya na lang ako sa mga comments nila.

7. I sometimes think that the universe attends to my needs. I consider myself lucky. Halos lahat ng bagay ay nagagawan ko ng paraan. Be it money or something about my grades, nalalampasan ko with flying colors! Ang bakla ko talaga!

8. I like younger boys. I'm just saddened by the fact that I think they get intimidated by me. I'm not saying kasi ang ganda-ganda ko. What I mean is kasi I'm older and physically bigger. Natural, doon na lang sila makikipaglandian sa ka-level nila. Ang hirap mag-diet!

9. I need a good thesis topic and a fantastic theory to back that up. I badly want to be one of the best thesis awardees this school year!

10. Kahit mas mabenta na ang mga straight acting homosexuals ngayon, I'll still stay true to my PA-GIRL roots. Laitin mo na ako at lahat-lahat, magsusuot pa rin ako ng pambabaeng damit, magpapahaba ng buhok, at maglalagay ng false eye lashes!

BABOO!

I used to be romantic.

Nowadays, I'm trying my best not to be one. Why? It's too painful.


Many of my friends tell me that what I'm doing isn't helpful because I'm simply closing my heart to the possibility of love and hardcore emotions. Then again, nakakasawa minsang umasa. You're hoping and hoping and hoping, but life will always show you that what you're doing is not enough. Madrama ako? Pweh.

Exhibit #1

Funny, you should ask. My friend introduced me to this site called http://boyohboi.blogspot.com (R18), and I was so in love with it. I really like (or should I say love?) young-looking boys, haha. Shet, I sound like a pedo here, but KANYA-KANYANG TASTE LANG YAN.

Exhibit #2

Wala na akong maisip i-blog. Baboo!

I love celebrities, especially the hot ones… and by hot, I mean the men.

But if there’s one thing I really hate whenever I see them in person, it’s the fact that they always wear a pair of darkened spectacles. Bakit ba kasi naka-shades pa kayo? Jirits much.

I don’t get to see their eyes. Hence, nakakabitin. Meganon?

Just this afternoon, I was with the writers of Kambal sa Uma in Grams, ABS-CBN kasi I was OJT-ing for them. Then, lo and behold… Diether Ocampo, my number one crush in the Philippine show business (sharing the spot with John Pratts and now nasali na rin si James Blanco), entered the restaurant and made beso-beso with my co-workers.

KILIG MUCH?!? He’s so cute… No… HANDSOME!

Too bad he was wearing shades kaya medyo waley.

Wow, who knew I would be able to sit a few meters away from two Idols?!

This time, Tita Pia Magalona gave Nyko, Eds, and I passes in Eat Bulaga. We originally sat in the 4th row pero when Cook's turn came, all people rushed to the stage... INCLUDING ME! Gosh, 7 steps away from an American Idol!!!  Ngayon pa lang nagsisink in sa akin na I saw Cook live. Wow! I liked his highlights. Bagay sa kanya, tee hee!

Well, well, well... Lucky me!

From the words of a true kontrabida: "You're nothing but a second rate, trying hard copycat!" -Cherie Gil to Sharon Cuneta in the movie Bituing Walang Ningning.

Change topic. Who is the real copycat here in these two photos?

I am fascinated by anything Louis Vuitton... the original ones, of course.

Ewan ko. Minsan kasi I don't understand why they are so BLOODY expensive and why a lot people patronize them. In my recent philosophy class, we studied that it's because they serve a higher value of culture, history, and the like, which inspires and sparks the creativity of many people. Supposedly, they are not just mere bags, shoes, and clothes.

LV products are stories, a part of human experience. It's about feeling good. It's about one's passion and dreams. Then again, uber expensive pa rin sila at the end of the day. Kaloka.


Well someday, I like to have my own... which I will pay for with my hard earned money, haha. Hello hello, future job and huge salary!

In the meantime, Tita Ita told my Tita Len to give me one of her old ones.


I would have prefered her Speedy since it's smaller and easier to mix and match with. Unfortunately, parang lantang gulay na ang material... sayang. Anyways, as Ateh Lui (my beshie) would say: BEGGARS CAN'T BE CHOOSERS.

Thanks for the nth time, Tita Ita!

I've had two boyfriends: one in grade six, another in grade seven.

Unfortunately, they were not my first love.

FIRST LOVE came when I was in third year high school. It was not love at first sight; more like love after about three years, haha. HE was my classmate way back in first year, and it was only during my third year in Ateneo wherein I realized na pinatitibok niya ang puso ko.

CHE!

Fast forward to 20 April 2009, my gurl friend just confirmed that FIRST LOVE and her girlfriend already had sex. And my FIRST LOVE was allegedly an HF (message me if you want to know the meaning). Trivias about their sex life came to me as if they were free flowing drinks in an open bar.

SHUCKS.

They had sex already!

I'm not feeling overly dramatic about it. Am I fragile? I'm not sure.



INGGIT LANG KAYA AKO? Haha.

13 April 2009

After three months in Japan, Japan, Sagot sa Kahirapan, my cousin Ana flew back here in the Philippines. Yay! I missed this girl so much. She has been my "sugarcoater" for the past years kaya marami akong nagiging gifts from my Tita Ita who is living in The Land of the Rising Sun since forever. Scheming much? More than that, kami na lang ang natirang Filipinas among our 1st degree cousins since ang other titas ko ay Japanese na ang napangasawa. Though we always fought as little kids, close na close na kami ngayon.

No. It's not about Serena and Nate.

S is for Sab Jose who wowed me again with the invitation for her 21st birthday (you should have seen her invitation when she had her debut). I left the house at around 10am for my FLAF meeting, which was so stressful! Ateneo can be so bitchy when it comes to security. What type is the caterers' car? Give me the names of the staff and crew of the caterers! Kulang tayo sa budget for food! Waaaaaaaah! JIRITS.

But when I arrived at home around 4pm, guess what surprised me in our sala table?

Day 4 (11 April 2009)

I will never really forget this vacation! I enjoyed so much, not to mention wala pa kaming gastos, haha.

So what happened was... beach, Sta. Maria Church, and then our 12-drive back to Manila.

Day 3 (10 April 2009)

Ilocos Norte kami today. I just realized that this was the farthest I’ve been in my life. Or Mindoro? Ewan ko ba. Ang alam ko lang eh marami kaming pinuntahan at ang ferosha sa Fort Ilocandia.


Went back to the house, rested for a while, then at around 5pm, we climbed the nearby hill to visit another of mom’s high school classmate’s rest house. This time, Anthony (the bongga classmate) chatted with me. It was nice to get to know him better.

At first, classic kwentuhan lang about me and mudra, my academic life, and etc… aba, pagkatapos ng sunset eh parang mga tiyanak na nagsulputan ang mga questions about my sex life (kung meron man, you decide). Nagtawanan na lang kami.

Day 2 (9 April 2009)

Woke up at around 10am because they (meaning: the thunders, haha) said we were going to the resort of the town mayor. What’s cool about this resort? Its swimming pool was constructed in such a way that the nearby spring simply flows through it. KABOG! Surely, malinis na malinis ang water kasi umaagos lang ito; in English, it goes with the flow… waley.

And I also tasted the fish Sungayan. Super sarap! I forgot I even loved tilapia and lapulapu, haha.

After lunch, we went to heritage town of Vigan. This specific trip would be probably the highlight of my Ilocos visit. Matagal ko nang pinapangarap mapuntahan ang Vigan since palaging kong nakikita si Cheche Lazaro na binibisita ang lugar na itraka sa television when I was still a little girl, echusa.

Calle Crisologo is simply divine! The old houses were really preserved to look like as if we’re still experiencing the 300-year Spanish regime. It’s a feast for the eyes, and mapapangiti ka talaga. Siyempre panira na lang ang mga souvenir stores, which were directly below some of old houses; medyo nakakatawa kasi yung upper part lang pala yung ancient. Chuva.

Back to the beach house noong gabi, night tampisaw ang drama namin. Would you believe: Mga 100 meters away na ako from the shore eh hanggang tuhod pa rin ang water? Kakaiba ang beach na ito. The sad thing though is super rocky ang surface ng beach. Walking barefoot proved to be futile. Salamat, Dupe!

Whew! What a holy week.

Honestly, I really hate this particular holiday season because everything seems so dark, sad, and quiet. Though I am a fan of “quiet,” there’s a different ring (ironic much?) when it’s the Lenten season. Blame it on Eat Bulaga’s drama specials, closed mall stores, and the yearly showing of Himala in major television networks, among others, it just makes me feel so DOWN.

Fortunately, it’s a different holy week this year.

It’s more fun, adventurous, and surprisingly informative. Why? Mother’s balikbayan classmate (who’s gay, yay!) treated us to the fabulous and historical province of Ilocos for a short vacation. Bonggang libre ang lola mo! And though I was deprived of accessing my various online accounts (Multiply, Facebook, and Plurk, where art thou?) and favorite blogs since our provincial house had no internet connection, it was all worth it… dapat lang noh.

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Day 1 (8 April 2009)

We spent our first day of vacation in the car. KALOKA!

Dudes and dudettes, let’s say hello to our 12-hour traveling time to Cabugao, Ilocos. We left at 8am, and we arrived at the beach house at 8pm. That was a long one! Nonetheless, who said “long” was boring?

Good thing I had Mela’s iPod to keep me company. More than that, we had a stop over at a certain church (of Charity, I forgot the whole name), and I really loved its organic architecture and obviously, its history. At inferness, may stopover naman kami sa mga gas stations, lunch in Max’s somewhere down the road, and a quaint karinderya. DISCLAIMER: Huwag maliitin ang karinderya because mahihiya ka sa view na makikita mo when you sit there.

TO DO LIST FOR THE DAY:

• Borrow Mela's iPod
• Check out prices of stuff in Rustan's for Future Leaders of Asia (FLAF)

Then again, marami ang nadagdag.

I planned leaving the house at around 4pm, but Mela was not texting me back. Mahihiram ko pa ba iPod niya? I was worried. I wanted to borrow his iPod kasi tomorrow I will be leaving for Ilocos (O dibah... akala mo naman "I will be leaving for Greece..."), and MGA 12 HOUR DRIVE YUN NOH!!! JIRITS!!! At puro thunder pa kasama ko kaya hindi ako mashadong makakarelate, the buzz? At least I will have my own world with Mela's iPod.

I miss mine. Ninakaw siya when I was still in HS.

Anywhoo, so who texted me instead? Jologs Queen herself, Mar Misa! Apparently, she was with Saabei in McDo Katip, so I went there na lang muna para diretso na rin ako ng Rustan's afterwards. When I arrived there, sa labas sila nakaupo. Weird kasi lagi ako sa loob ng McDo tumatambay, tee hee. They were telling me na one fangirl daw asked for her picture with them. Bilang mga professional sila, they did. SIKAT!

Maraming salamat sa Plurk at patuloy ang pagsikat ng dalawang babaeng itraka! Fan pala nila sa Plurk 'yung girlet.

It's been this way since last November, our semestral break. I would wake up at 12pm then sleep at around 430am.

I hate it, but I couldn't help it unfortunately.

Must deal with it, haha!

This is Miss Patch. And this blog will chronicle my day-to-day, week-to-week, or month-to-month experiences depending on my mood to write.

I hope I enjoy, haha!